soon ramadhan is leaving us.
just few hours more.
today is the last day that we have to fast,
and the takbir can be heard over the radio in the evening.
as much as i'm supposed to be glad that i managed to get through the fasting month,
i can't help it that the sound of takbir makes me sad.
there's that sadness in it that it is hard to describe.
so fast the month has pass.
what i'm gonna miss most is breaking fast together with my family members and the partner,
this year,
it is countable on how many times i didn't break fast at home.
and perhaps another thing that i'll miss will be the terawih.
it helps to discipline myself and remind me that life on earth is not everything.
let's hope we'll get to meet the next ramadhan.
insyaAllah.
since raya is just on wednesday,
i'm sure everyone's mom has been nagging/reminding to clean the room and help around with the house.
and have their homes nicely decorated.
haha.
away from raya's preparations,
my sunday was simple.
the partner even though he didn't have enough sleep, fetched me over to his house.
and i was to help him to clean his room.
one of to do things is wiping his transformers toys.
i was astonished at his toys till i just sit and stare at the amount of toys he had.
i think it was more than 60 boxes of it.
i don't even know where to start counting it from.
we had a delicious meal prepared by his mom for buka.
after the cleaning up,
the both of us together with his parents rest and watched the formula 1 on tv.
we kept switching the channels from star sports to channel 5 whenener it was time for a commercial break because we don't want to miss anything.
every seconds is precious.
it was really, really, really interesting and exciting to watch it.
i have to admit it was my first time watching the the f1 race.
i'm glad i didn't miss it.
it was a nice easy feeling being with his family.
me and his dad kept laughing about some of the parts.
being there,
made me realised that i'm lucky.
i'm glad that his parents love me and things are going on well.
i can never ask for more.
sweetheart,
happy 999 day.
i love you with all my heart.
Tuesday, September 30
Saturday, September 27
the moment in life
for these past few days, my life has been challenging,
everything seems to be in a mess.
time and time again, i've tried so hard to fight it.
which at times,
i found tears streaming down my face
i can't take it anymore and i don't understand.
it's been hard.
i know god won't challenged me something that i can't take on.
He's testing me.
well,
it is life.
you have your fun days,
you have your gloomy days.
you enjoy,
you suffer.
it can't be help.
we all have our days.
it don't only happened to you.
never give up,
because the time will soon past by.
alhamdullilah,
things are looking brighter now and i'm starting to feel jovial.
and i always believe that things happened for a reason.
the partner has been a sweetheart,
he knows when i'm not myself even though i pretend to be myself,
and he's been throwing words of encouragement to pull my spirits up,
because he said, it pains him to see me sad.
he even make time for me and become silly just to see me laugh.
like on friday,
i was just expecting mcflurry,
but he bought more,
fries, spicy nuggets and green tea to share it with me.
i can see his effort to cheer me up,
and i appreciate it.
and today,
the partner and i break fast outside,
we even had fruits on the table for desserts, it was the partner who initiated it.
a good meal.
the car ride was super fun!
all the songs and the silly half-body dance moves plus the lots of teasing!
darling, garling, marling,
for all you did,
thank you love.
i really love you so much,
every bit of you baby!
i want to make you the luckiest guy darling!
my heart gleam at the sight/thoughts/illusion of you.
you're that lighthouse that i never fail to see when i'm in a stormy weather.
everything seems to be in a mess.
time and time again, i've tried so hard to fight it.
which at times,
i found tears streaming down my face
i can't take it anymore and i don't understand.
it's been hard.
i know god won't challenged me something that i can't take on.
He's testing me.
well,
it is life.
you have your fun days,
you have your gloomy days.
you enjoy,
you suffer.
it can't be help.
we all have our days.
it don't only happened to you.
never give up,
because the time will soon past by.
alhamdullilah,
things are looking brighter now and i'm starting to feel jovial.
and i always believe that things happened for a reason.
the partner has been a sweetheart,
he knows when i'm not myself even though i pretend to be myself,
and he's been throwing words of encouragement to pull my spirits up,
because he said, it pains him to see me sad.
he even make time for me and become silly just to see me laugh.
like on friday,
i was just expecting mcflurry,
but he bought more,
fries, spicy nuggets and green tea to share it with me.
i can see his effort to cheer me up,
and i appreciate it.
and today,
the partner and i break fast outside,
we even had fruits on the table for desserts, it was the partner who initiated it.
a good meal.
the car ride was super fun!
all the songs and the silly half-body dance moves plus the lots of teasing!
darling, garling, marling,
for all you did,
thank you love.
i really love you so much,
every bit of you baby!
i want to make you the luckiest guy darling!
my heart gleam at the sight/thoughts/illusion of you.
you're that lighthouse that i never fail to see when i'm in a stormy weather.
Friday, September 26
stress and destress
why must the recess week be a week before raya?
because it's driving me crazzieeeee!!
i have 2 readings to do for tutorial,
2 more chapters to read and understand for a test,
and a lab report due next friday (which i haven't even start!)
oh goodness!
how can i not panic?!!
great.
and there's a pimple on my forehead.
no matter what,
i'll pull through,
somehow.....
*chants*
i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it.
let me take a moment to destress myself by immersing myself the time i had with the partner.
we met up yesterday to break fast together,
this time around,
not at home.
we had a good meal and after running some errands,
we went to a place which i always find it to be peaceful.
there while taking in the view of orangey yellow lightings and the view of the vast sky with clouds and stars twinkling,
we fed one another and talked and laughed.
one reason i had to laugh was because the partner was tickling me.
i don't need to smoke or to drink or even take drugs to let me forget my problems temporarily, all i need is happy laughing time with the partner to make me high.
=)
i had a very good sleep today since it was raining heavily in the morning.
with the sound of thunder and the heavy raindrops,
i close my eyes tighter and hug the pillow and i soon fell into a deep sleep.
what i remember was i was awoken by a sms by my sister.
while reading her message,
i realised i had a message from the partner.
and i'm glad to be seeing him tonight.
=)
another laughing session!
honey,
we're lucky.
because it's driving me crazzieeeee!!
i have 2 readings to do for tutorial,
2 more chapters to read and understand for a test,
and a lab report due next friday (which i haven't even start!)
oh goodness!
how can i not panic?!!
great.
and there's a pimple on my forehead.
no matter what,
i'll pull through,
somehow.....
*chants*
i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it.
let me take a moment to destress myself by immersing myself the time i had with the partner.
we met up yesterday to break fast together,
this time around,
not at home.
we had a good meal and after running some errands,
we went to a place which i always find it to be peaceful.
there while taking in the view of orangey yellow lightings and the view of the vast sky with clouds and stars twinkling,
we fed one another and talked and laughed.
one reason i had to laugh was because the partner was tickling me.
i don't need to smoke or to drink or even take drugs to let me forget my problems temporarily, all i need is happy laughing time with the partner to make me high.
=)
i had a very good sleep today since it was raining heavily in the morning.
with the sound of thunder and the heavy raindrops,
i close my eyes tighter and hug the pillow and i soon fell into a deep sleep.
what i remember was i was awoken by a sms by my sister.
while reading her message,
i realised i had a message from the partner.
and i'm glad to be seeing him tonight.
=)
another laughing session!
honey,
we're lucky.
Wednesday, September 24
a week more to eid & 1000
i'm sure most of us are aware it's a week more to eid.
meaning one more week till we end our fasting.
1st october 2008.
the date also marks our 1,000th day together.
ever since we've been attached on the fateful date, 5th jan 06.
how cool right?
haha.
i did the calculation manually,
counting the days in every months and adding it.
i was surprised at the results that i used the help of an online date calculator to confirm it.
and yes,
i was right.
how coincidence!
our 1,000th day falls on 1st october,
the same date as hari raya.
2 things to look forward to.
=)
i've told the partner about it and his replied was,
"good lah, so we can ask for forgiveness for the 1,000 days that has past"
which i truly agreed.
mistakes are unstoppable,
for we are only human.
and as much as the partner and me are alike,
he can never feel and think the way i do.
neither can i.
thus,
disagreements do occurs.
and i never like those occasions when we feel frustrated with one another.
it always made me feel like i'm a bad girlfriend after every argument.
that i'm not understanding enough,
not tactful enough,
not good enough.
i feel terrible everytime.
but the partner has been supportive and understanding.
and that helps alot.
as a result,
the both of us will come to a consensus.
get perfect out of your mind and you're be happier.
=)
so a week more to raya.
quite a number of things to be done.
a trip to joan road to get freshly cut flowers (my fav!),
decorate my room,
etc.
i've always love flowers.
it makes me go gaga whenever i see them
but that doesn't mean fake ones.
i can't wait to go with mom and mama in to pick out the flowers!
earlier,
grandma had asked me to try on the kebaya she just sew.
i have to admit it's pretty.
=)
as long as i can remember,
it has always been my dearest grandma who sew her grandchildren's costumes.
even though she might not see as well and control her hand well,
she still continue to sew.
really sweet of her.
i don't know whether i can be like her if i'm a grandma.
so this year,
i have 3 baju-s.
2 sponsered by the partner's mom & dad.
i'm thankful.
ok back to the 4 digits,
1,000.
i know the both of us never have a relationship this long.
and believe me,
once you are with the right one,
you never dread the time you spend together.
instead you want more.
honey,
thanks for appreciating me,
you made me feel bless all the time,
i'll always love you.
meaning one more week till we end our fasting.
1st october 2008.
the date also marks our 1,000th day together.
ever since we've been attached on the fateful date, 5th jan 06.
how cool right?
haha.
i did the calculation manually,
counting the days in every months and adding it.
i was surprised at the results that i used the help of an online date calculator to confirm it.
and yes,
i was right.
how coincidence!
our 1,000th day falls on 1st october,
the same date as hari raya.
2 things to look forward to.
=)
i've told the partner about it and his replied was,
"good lah, so we can ask for forgiveness for the 1,000 days that has past"
which i truly agreed.
mistakes are unstoppable,
for we are only human.
and as much as the partner and me are alike,
he can never feel and think the way i do.
neither can i.
thus,
disagreements do occurs.
and i never like those occasions when we feel frustrated with one another.
it always made me feel like i'm a bad girlfriend after every argument.
that i'm not understanding enough,
not tactful enough,
not good enough.
i feel terrible everytime.
but the partner has been supportive and understanding.
and that helps alot.
as a result,
the both of us will come to a consensus.
get perfect out of your mind and you're be happier.
=)
so a week more to raya.
quite a number of things to be done.
a trip to joan road to get freshly cut flowers (my fav!),
decorate my room,
etc.
i've always love flowers.
it makes me go gaga whenever i see them
but that doesn't mean fake ones.
i can't wait to go with mom and mama in to pick out the flowers!
earlier,
grandma had asked me to try on the kebaya she just sew.
i have to admit it's pretty.
=)
as long as i can remember,
it has always been my dearest grandma who sew her grandchildren's costumes.
even though she might not see as well and control her hand well,
she still continue to sew.
really sweet of her.
i don't know whether i can be like her if i'm a grandma.
so this year,
i have 3 baju-s.
2 sponsered by the partner's mom & dad.
i'm thankful.
ok back to the 4 digits,
1,000.
i know the both of us never have a relationship this long.
and believe me,
once you are with the right one,
you never dread the time you spend together.
instead you want more.
honey,
thanks for appreciating me,
you made me feel bless all the time,
i'll always love you.
Tuesday, September 23
the partner, the joker
i will be laughing to myself while typing this entry out.
all because of the partner.
he is really silly and funny!
he knows that i'm stressed with upcoming test, essays and the messy home (which is now all clean and tidy)
he listened to me expressing my angry thoughts while i fetched him from work.
i was too engross in saying what i'm feeling that i didn't realised that i went over the speed limit, until he reminded me.
"honey, don't go so fast"
of course i can't be babbling throughout the whole journey,
the pause was when he gave me his views.
i must say that his replies and advices now are much wiser compare to the previous advices he gave.
oh honey,
don't get me wrong,
the previous advices was wise but the present advices are wiser.
good lah you!
ok back to the hilarious part,
while i was rearranging some items,
the partner found about 5 hair clips with fake 'hair' on it.
you know those with ribbon and curly strand of hair?
obviously it was not mine,
it was atiqah's.
the partner being curious tried it on his hair!
he asked,
"honey, how do you use this clip?"
once he learnt how to clip it,
he clipped in on his hair.
he used it as a fringe,
thus he had curly fringe.
with the help of the mirror he adjusted his hair.
hahhhahaha!
it was hilarious!
even mom, dad and grandma saw his 'hair' because they happened to walk past.
he had long fringe but really short hair at the back.
hahah!
and he tried on a few belts.
on top of that,
he pretended to be a salesperson promoting hair products.
aiyoyo!
i cannot tahan but to burst out laughing!
my boyfriend is a joker lah!
oh my goodness!
i can't imagine he did that.
he really knows how to make me laugh heartily!
i will remember that for life.
that laughter did cheer me up!
while on the way to send him back,
he stop at a petrol kiosk and surprise me with ice cream,
one each.
we didn't eat them there and then because we won't be able to enjoy it.
so at his carpark,
we unwrap the ice cream wrapper and indulged in it.
wooooaaaa!
it was so nice!
nice to eat it with him!
and we talk about random things.
he really does know how to cheer me up.
heh!
i am glad i'm together with the partner.
he attends to my needs and knows how to treat me right.
he places in effort to bring happiness in my life.
sweetheart,
let us stay in love forever.
and thank you.
all because of the partner.
he is really silly and funny!
he knows that i'm stressed with upcoming test, essays and the messy home (which is now all clean and tidy)
he listened to me expressing my angry thoughts while i fetched him from work.
i was too engross in saying what i'm feeling that i didn't realised that i went over the speed limit, until he reminded me.
"honey, don't go so fast"
of course i can't be babbling throughout the whole journey,
the pause was when he gave me his views.
i must say that his replies and advices now are much wiser compare to the previous advices he gave.
oh honey,
don't get me wrong,
the previous advices was wise but the present advices are wiser.
good lah you!
ok back to the hilarious part,
while i was rearranging some items,
the partner found about 5 hair clips with fake 'hair' on it.
you know those with ribbon and curly strand of hair?
obviously it was not mine,
it was atiqah's.
the partner being curious tried it on his hair!
he asked,
"honey, how do you use this clip?"
once he learnt how to clip it,
he clipped in on his hair.
he used it as a fringe,
thus he had curly fringe.
with the help of the mirror he adjusted his hair.
hahhhahaha!
it was hilarious!
even mom, dad and grandma saw his 'hair' because they happened to walk past.
he had long fringe but really short hair at the back.
hahah!
and he tried on a few belts.
on top of that,
he pretended to be a salesperson promoting hair products.
aiyoyo!
i cannot tahan but to burst out laughing!
my boyfriend is a joker lah!
oh my goodness!
i can't imagine he did that.
he really knows how to make me laugh heartily!
i will remember that for life.
that laughter did cheer me up!
while on the way to send him back,
he stop at a petrol kiosk and surprise me with ice cream,
one each.
we didn't eat them there and then because we won't be able to enjoy it.
so at his carpark,
we unwrap the ice cream wrapper and indulged in it.
wooooaaaa!
it was so nice!
nice to eat it with him!
and we talk about random things.
he really does know how to cheer me up.
heh!
i am glad i'm together with the partner.
he attends to my needs and knows how to treat me right.
he places in effort to bring happiness in my life.
sweetheart,
let us stay in love forever.
and thank you.
Monday, September 22
fatin's day!
happy 11th birthday nurul fatin syazwani!
so today,
the 22nd sept marks my youngest sister birthday. (exactly 3 more months!)
be a good sister okay?
i will try to be good also.
the above happened yesterday.
fatin threatened atiqah that in order to eat the ice cream,
she must kiss her.
and so the little kid tried kissing her but fatin resist.
kesian budak kecil tu, sampai dia cry nak cium fatin sebab dia nak makan ice cream.
(pity the little kid, until she cry to try to kiss fatin all beacause she wants the ice cream)
syafiqah. atiqah. fatin.
atiqah waiting for people to feed her.
i miss eating waffles & ice cream that i asked my sisters to eat with me!
and today,
i will be seeing the partner again!
to break fast over at my house.
=)
best lah!
ok fatin,
remember,
be good!
happy birthday!
honey,
i'm counting down the minutes!
so today,
the 22nd sept marks my youngest sister birthday. (exactly 3 more months!)
be a good sister okay?
i will try to be good also.
the above happened yesterday.
fatin threatened atiqah that in order to eat the ice cream,
she must kiss her.
and so the little kid tried kissing her but fatin resist.
kesian budak kecil tu, sampai dia cry nak cium fatin sebab dia nak makan ice cream.
(pity the little kid, until she cry to try to kiss fatin all beacause she wants the ice cream)
syafiqah. atiqah. fatin.
atiqah waiting for people to feed her.
i miss eating waffles & ice cream that i asked my sisters to eat with me!
and today,
i will be seeing the partner again!
to break fast over at my house.
=)
best lah!
ok fatin,
remember,
be good!
happy birthday!
honey,
i'm counting down the minutes!
Sunday, September 21
a speck of light
i am totally tired today.
all i wanted to do is to sleep.
and so yesterday,
the partner and i went to geylang.
i think that will be our last visit there for this month.
we were walking aimlessly for 4 hours, taking in the atmosphere.
the both of us had to go there because i had to bring a group of people.
my job was to bring them there and bring them back.
what was easy was that when we reached there,
it was free and easy time for them.
we had a bus to bring the 34 of us there.
the partner and i felt that we were on an excursion.
haha!
the partner and i had a great time together,
sharing some thoughts while walking and take turns to lead one another through the crowd.
when it was time to break fast,
we had our time together.
we found a quiet place and some chairs to sit on.
face to face,
both of us sharing our food and share our opinions on the food.
that quiet moment was beautiful.
i would like to share some of my thoughts.
this modern and materialized world makes me neglect my duties to the Almighty.
and i'm glad for ramadhan.
it helps me to reflect about my life.
in this holy month of ramadhan,
i've learnt so many interesting things about islam.
and it spur an interest in me.
it makes me want to improve my relationship with the Almighty.
through that,
i know i will be able to know and learn more about myself.
the partner has taught me so much things in love that it realised so many beautiful things in life.
through this relationship,
the partner and i are able to mature.
we are able to widen our outlook of life and on the other hand, scrutinized our own life.
we would try to give our best on earth and also prepare for the afterlife.
for life is unpredictable,
we may never know when we have to go.
syukur alhamdullilah.
honey,
let's keep on encouraging one another to bring in more of god in our lives.
sweetheart,
you must know that you're the person that i love most.
thanks for moulding me into a better person.
all i wanted to do is to sleep.
and so yesterday,
the partner and i went to geylang.
i think that will be our last visit there for this month.
we were walking aimlessly for 4 hours, taking in the atmosphere.
the both of us had to go there because i had to bring a group of people.
my job was to bring them there and bring them back.
what was easy was that when we reached there,
it was free and easy time for them.
we had a bus to bring the 34 of us there.
the partner and i felt that we were on an excursion.
haha!
the partner and i had a great time together,
sharing some thoughts while walking and take turns to lead one another through the crowd.
when it was time to break fast,
we had our time together.
we found a quiet place and some chairs to sit on.
face to face,
both of us sharing our food and share our opinions on the food.
that quiet moment was beautiful.
i would like to share some of my thoughts.
this modern and materialized world makes me neglect my duties to the Almighty.
and i'm glad for ramadhan.
it helps me to reflect about my life.
in this holy month of ramadhan,
i've learnt so many interesting things about islam.
and it spur an interest in me.
it makes me want to improve my relationship with the Almighty.
through that,
i know i will be able to know and learn more about myself.
the partner has taught me so much things in love that it realised so many beautiful things in life.
through this relationship,
the partner and i are able to mature.
we are able to widen our outlook of life and on the other hand, scrutinized our own life.
we would try to give our best on earth and also prepare for the afterlife.
for life is unpredictable,
we may never know when we have to go.
syukur alhamdullilah.
honey,
let's keep on encouraging one another to bring in more of god in our lives.
sweetheart,
you must know that you're the person that i love most.
thanks for moulding me into a better person.
Saturday, September 20
whatever it takes.
on a friday afternoon, i had a surprising call from the partner,
he had asked me to help him out with his unfinished school assignment.
how can i ever turn the partner down?
we construct sentences and comment on it.
we had a tough time linking a paragraph to another and making sense of the whole essay.
we were really cracking our brains.
it's always not fun when you have to do essay.
=(
because there is always room for improvement,
but the problem is where.
what the marker wants may not be what we deliver .
and we break fast over at my house again.
=)
i'll have my recess week this upcoming week.
however,
there are a lot of things to study for and do.
oh goodness!!
i've gotta prepared myself mentally.
ooohhmmmmm ohmmmmmm ohmmmmmm......
*blink eyes*
ohmmmmmm ohhhmmmmmm ohmmmmmm.......
honey,
whatever it takes,
i will give my best.
no matter how hard life hits me,
i will still give my all.
because i know with god,
anything is possible.
i'll prove it to you.
we must not be afraid of the new challenges as it will mould us into a better person.
falling in love with you is a risk that i thankful of.
he had asked me to help him out with his unfinished school assignment.
how can i ever turn the partner down?
we construct sentences and comment on it.
we had a tough time linking a paragraph to another and making sense of the whole essay.
we were really cracking our brains.
it's always not fun when you have to do essay.
=(
because there is always room for improvement,
but the problem is where.
what the marker wants may not be what we deliver .
and we break fast over at my house again.
=)
i'll have my recess week this upcoming week.
however,
there are a lot of things to study for and do.
oh goodness!!
i've gotta prepared myself mentally.
ooohhmmmmm ohmmmmmm ohmmmmmm......
*blink eyes*
ohmmmmmm ohhhmmmmmm ohmmmmmm.......
honey,
whatever it takes,
i will give my best.
no matter how hard life hits me,
i will still give my all.
because i know with god,
anything is possible.
i'll prove it to you.
we must not be afraid of the new challenges as it will mould us into a better person.
falling in love with you is a risk that i thankful of.
Friday, September 19
cleaning can be fun
oh boy!
throwing of stuffs wasn't as easy as i expected.
it's not that i haven't throw stuffs before,
but everytime i had to do it,
it's hard.
just so hard.
the partner consistently remind me to throw pieces of papers away,
which i defended for the worth of the papers.
it can be recycled, i can use the other side for printing, and any other reasons i can think of.
let say i'm doing my part for the environment or perhaps i'm becoming a karang guni.
nononono!
the partner was tired of nagging that he watched me do the segregating between rubbish and can be used items.
i knew he tried his best to psycho me but i am stubborn.
so he ended up clearing the rubbish.
he too helped me in rearranging items.
and i must say that he's a great help.
without him,
i wouldn't managed to finish it fast.
without fail,
there were teasing.
haha!
(action sey orang tu)
he was tired.
it was after work when i fetched him and i can already see how much work has drained his energy.
but still,
he went on and helped me.
he could has just cancel it.
but no.
he carry on his plans to see me.
i didn't send him home,
but to work so that he can finish up his assignment.
how can i not love him?
he pushed himself for me.
troubled with his assignment, he called me and we had an intelligent talk about some sociology stuffs.
i am glad to be of help and i like having those talks when we have to convince one another why we stood by our stand.
it's challenging.
=)
sweetheart,
thank you for helping me out.
and thank you for exerting more energy for me.
i know it wasn't easy,
i know.
time and time again,
you never fail to impress me with your actions.
i love you baby.
*ps. i like it when you pat my head and tousle my hair. i feel like a small girl,
your girl.
=)
throwing of stuffs wasn't as easy as i expected.
it's not that i haven't throw stuffs before,
but everytime i had to do it,
it's hard.
just so hard.
the partner consistently remind me to throw pieces of papers away,
which i defended for the worth of the papers.
it can be recycled, i can use the other side for printing, and any other reasons i can think of.
let say i'm doing my part for the environment or perhaps i'm becoming a karang guni.
nononono!
the partner was tired of nagging that he watched me do the segregating between rubbish and can be used items.
i knew he tried his best to psycho me but i am stubborn.
so he ended up clearing the rubbish.
he too helped me in rearranging items.
and i must say that he's a great help.
without him,
i wouldn't managed to finish it fast.
without fail,
there were teasing.
haha!
(action sey orang tu)
he was tired.
it was after work when i fetched him and i can already see how much work has drained his energy.
but still,
he went on and helped me.
he could has just cancel it.
but no.
he carry on his plans to see me.
i didn't send him home,
but to work so that he can finish up his assignment.
how can i not love him?
he pushed himself for me.
troubled with his assignment, he called me and we had an intelligent talk about some sociology stuffs.
i am glad to be of help and i like having those talks when we have to convince one another why we stood by our stand.
it's challenging.
=)
sweetheart,
thank you for helping me out.
and thank you for exerting more energy for me.
i know it wasn't easy,
i know.
time and time again,
you never fail to impress me with your actions.
i love you baby.
*ps. i like it when you pat my head and tousle my hair. i feel like a small girl,
your girl.
=)
Wednesday, September 17
late day and a touch on true love
apart from enjoying the presence of the partner yesterday,
i woke up late today.
totally late!
i had a test at 8am but i woke up at 7.36am!
imagine my panic-ness!
somemore it's my first time waking up late!
i thought of not showering since i was very very very late,
but my hair stood out,
thus i took a quick shower with soap on.
even though late,
must still smell good.
i don't want flies to keep flying over my head.
i rush down the stairs and flag for a cab.
when the cab turned a different route,
my mind was filled with questions.
that was when i understand that he thought i was refering to ntu.
argh!
so i had to stuck in a jam since he didn't go by aye.
and i've reached school at 8.20am,
which if he took the aye,
i can reach even earlier and save more.
haiyamak!
even though i was late,
i had ample time to finish the paper.
syukur alhamdullilah.
and so that was my morning.
the whole of my afternoon,
i got sleepy in lectures and tutorial that i had to wipe my eyes due to excessive yawning.
my wednesday is always packed,
starts from 8am to 6pm,
with 2 hours break.
thanks goodness dad fetched me home.
=)
end of today.
yesterday,
i fetched the partner over to my house to break fast together.
we chilled to watch a bug's life and some shows.
=)
what took me by surprise was,
while watching the shows,
the partner held my hand.
not that he don't normally do that,
but my parents were there.
you know something like 'tak manis' (not sweet).
my parents saw it and they don't see it as a problem.
they are very understanding.
send the partner home since he had to start on his school assignments.
i managed to wait up for the partner since i was doing my revision.
and slept at 2am.
no wonder i woke up late huh?
the 3 alarms didn't help me to wake up.
because i was too tired.
i'll hope to see the partner tomorrow.
so that he can help to psycho me to clear some stuffs away since mom always complain that i keep 'junks'.
i don't consider them junk,
everything is something.
one of the things she considered junk is receipts.
i keep receipts.
why?
because i can track back where i was, what i bought, who i was with, how my day went that day, how much did i spend, and many more questions.
the little slips of paper is memorable.
that's just me.
it's hard for me to throw away stuffs especially books and magazines.
the magazines was kept since i was in my secondary school days,
like teens, teenage, lime, girlfriend (an australian mag, my favourite!), seventeen (us mag as that time, there wasn't the singapore version), teen vogue & vanity fair (if i have excess money to splurge on)
i bought them because of the articles and the fun of it.
how can i throw away something that it was hard to get?
i mean it wasn't cheap,
i had to save $$$ in order to get those every month.
i had that hobby for several years,
and suddenly i realised that with the amount of money i spent on magazines,
i can spent on something else with it.
so yeah,
i've stop collecting and also i have nowhere to house them since mom is nagging about the 'junks'.
i hate throwing away stuffs.
that is why i need the partner to help me out.
like how last year,
i helped him out to throw away his sentimental items.
i managed to read through his old love letters and birthday cards he received.
and there were pictures too.
of course my heart was swelling.
i'm sure you all know the feeling,
going through your partner's old stuffs.
out of a sudden,
in front of me,
he took all the items and tore it and placed it in the typical black garbage bags.
i felt the sense of achievement.
i may sound like the bad guy here.
anyway,
that move shows and meant a lot to me.
i felt accomplished.
i felt that the partner is totally serious about looking forward to the future with me.
me,
nurul atirah bte mahmuddin,
the last lady he ever love dearly (apart from our daughters)
that's what make my life worth living.
i am someone who doesn't like to look back in history when it comes to the matter of the heart,
especially when i am in a relationship now.
what is over, it's over.
no doubt memories will stay,
but it means nothing.
it doesn't work because it has reasons.
somewhere, something wasn't right.
why thinking about it when you are suppose to focus on the current relationship?
i always stand by my principle,
if i want it,
i would give my all to it and never ever give up.
that's the same for love,
if you love, really love each other,
no matter how tough the challenges are going to be,
both of you will never give up.
both of you will keep on pursuing.
stand by each other and still want each other.
nothing can separate you except death or the loss of memory.
you don't love someone because he/she is healthy,
but will you still love them when they are sick, disabled, etc?
some had to let go,
and that is not true love.
that's just,
i don't know.
perhaps the fun and joy of experiencing love?
i don't know.
when the going get tough,
giving up seems to be the easy option.
an abstract on one of my entries in 2005.
it's been 10 months and still counting since i've been single.
well, i can't deny the last break up was hard.
but hey, it's a blessing in disguise.
seriously, it is.
it's not like i'm not been moving on with life since the last relationship,
in fact, i am moving on with a great mindset.
people do asked me "why aren't you in a relationship?"
it's a question that keeps me thinking about it, a lot.
and i come to a conclusion.
to me, being in a relationship is when the couple is really serious about each other.
madly in love with each other is not enough cause you may never know it will fade away. (take for example jennifer aniston and brad pitt)
it's when both of you decide that you wanna spend the whole life with each other.
accepting each other's flaws and compromising.
now, in modern times, people are abusing it.
some are in a relationship due to peer pressure.
some just need someone to make out with.
some may just want to show off or perhaps boost their egos to their friends.
some need the extra attention.
and some think that,
i love you, you love me and then we should get into a relationship.
there are endless reasons.
sometimes, i can't get it.
in the sense that when those people who are in a relationship said to each other.
"if you found a better guy/girl, i'll let you go."
on the first place, if you are indeed serious about your boyfriend/girlfriend, why should you look around for other people?
so does it mean like i'm holding on to you till you found the one?
if people get their mindset correct about relationship,
there wouldn't be break-ups, there wouldn't be divorce.
these occurs when couples are unfaithful to each other.
or maybe due to financial problems or etc.
but being together you are supposed to hang in there,
go through together.
not divorce, not breaking up.
those are just lame excuses, to free themselves, to free from the partner's burden.
abusing won't happen if the fella loves you.
who will beat up a loved one?
unless the person is insane.
true love conquers everything.
having 2 failed relationship, it makes me realised more.
i wasn't thinking.
i was fooled by those 'love bugs'.
thinking about it, i realised how gullible i am.
but now, i'm more aware and know what i want from it.
looking long term now.
no more short term.
--------------
true love last forever.
no matter how hard it gets.
honey,
thank you.
the great short day we had yesterday was fun!
as long as i get to see you,
even for a few minutes,
i am happy!
i want to be the only woman in your life forever.
i woke up late today.
totally late!
i had a test at 8am but i woke up at 7.36am!
imagine my panic-ness!
somemore it's my first time waking up late!
i thought of not showering since i was very very very late,
but my hair stood out,
thus i took a quick shower with soap on.
even though late,
must still smell good.
i don't want flies to keep flying over my head.
i rush down the stairs and flag for a cab.
when the cab turned a different route,
my mind was filled with questions.
that was when i understand that he thought i was refering to ntu.
argh!
so i had to stuck in a jam since he didn't go by aye.
and i've reached school at 8.20am,
which if he took the aye,
i can reach even earlier and save more.
haiyamak!
even though i was late,
i had ample time to finish the paper.
syukur alhamdullilah.
and so that was my morning.
the whole of my afternoon,
i got sleepy in lectures and tutorial that i had to wipe my eyes due to excessive yawning.
my wednesday is always packed,
starts from 8am to 6pm,
with 2 hours break.
thanks goodness dad fetched me home.
=)
end of today.
yesterday,
i fetched the partner over to my house to break fast together.
we chilled to watch a bug's life and some shows.
=)
what took me by surprise was,
while watching the shows,
the partner held my hand.
not that he don't normally do that,
but my parents were there.
you know something like 'tak manis' (not sweet).
my parents saw it and they don't see it as a problem.
they are very understanding.
send the partner home since he had to start on his school assignments.
i managed to wait up for the partner since i was doing my revision.
and slept at 2am.
no wonder i woke up late huh?
the 3 alarms didn't help me to wake up.
because i was too tired.
i'll hope to see the partner tomorrow.
so that he can help to psycho me to clear some stuffs away since mom always complain that i keep 'junks'.
i don't consider them junk,
everything is something.
one of the things she considered junk is receipts.
i keep receipts.
why?
because i can track back where i was, what i bought, who i was with, how my day went that day, how much did i spend, and many more questions.
the little slips of paper is memorable.
that's just me.
it's hard for me to throw away stuffs especially books and magazines.
the magazines was kept since i was in my secondary school days,
like teens, teenage, lime, girlfriend (an australian mag, my favourite!), seventeen (us mag as that time, there wasn't the singapore version), teen vogue & vanity fair (if i have excess money to splurge on)
i bought them because of the articles and the fun of it.
how can i throw away something that it was hard to get?
i mean it wasn't cheap,
i had to save $$$ in order to get those every month.
i had that hobby for several years,
and suddenly i realised that with the amount of money i spent on magazines,
i can spent on something else with it.
so yeah,
i've stop collecting and also i have nowhere to house them since mom is nagging about the 'junks'.
i hate throwing away stuffs.
that is why i need the partner to help me out.
like how last year,
i helped him out to throw away his sentimental items.
i managed to read through his old love letters and birthday cards he received.
and there were pictures too.
of course my heart was swelling.
i'm sure you all know the feeling,
going through your partner's old stuffs.
out of a sudden,
in front of me,
he took all the items and tore it and placed it in the typical black garbage bags.
i felt the sense of achievement.
i may sound like the bad guy here.
anyway,
that move shows and meant a lot to me.
i felt accomplished.
i felt that the partner is totally serious about looking forward to the future with me.
me,
nurul atirah bte mahmuddin,
the last lady he ever love dearly (apart from our daughters)
that's what make my life worth living.
i am someone who doesn't like to look back in history when it comes to the matter of the heart,
especially when i am in a relationship now.
what is over, it's over.
no doubt memories will stay,
but it means nothing.
it doesn't work because it has reasons.
somewhere, something wasn't right.
why thinking about it when you are suppose to focus on the current relationship?
i always stand by my principle,
if i want it,
i would give my all to it and never ever give up.
that's the same for love,
if you love, really love each other,
no matter how tough the challenges are going to be,
both of you will never give up.
both of you will keep on pursuing.
stand by each other and still want each other.
nothing can separate you except death or the loss of memory.
you don't love someone because he/she is healthy,
but will you still love them when they are sick, disabled, etc?
some had to let go,
and that is not true love.
that's just,
i don't know.
perhaps the fun and joy of experiencing love?
i don't know.
when the going get tough,
giving up seems to be the easy option.
an abstract on one of my entries in 2005.
it's been 10 months and still counting since i've been single.
well, i can't deny the last break up was hard.
but hey, it's a blessing in disguise.
seriously, it is.
it's not like i'm not been moving on with life since the last relationship,
in fact, i am moving on with a great mindset.
people do asked me "why aren't you in a relationship?"
it's a question that keeps me thinking about it, a lot.
and i come to a conclusion.
to me, being in a relationship is when the couple is really serious about each other.
madly in love with each other is not enough cause you may never know it will fade away. (take for example jennifer aniston and brad pitt)
it's when both of you decide that you wanna spend the whole life with each other.
accepting each other's flaws and compromising.
now, in modern times, people are abusing it.
some are in a relationship due to peer pressure.
some just need someone to make out with.
some may just want to show off or perhaps boost their egos to their friends.
some need the extra attention.
and some think that,
i love you, you love me and then we should get into a relationship.
there are endless reasons.
sometimes, i can't get it.
in the sense that when those people who are in a relationship said to each other.
"if you found a better guy/girl, i'll let you go."
on the first place, if you are indeed serious about your boyfriend/girlfriend, why should you look around for other people?
so does it mean like i'm holding on to you till you found the one?
if people get their mindset correct about relationship,
there wouldn't be break-ups, there wouldn't be divorce.
these occurs when couples are unfaithful to each other.
or maybe due to financial problems or etc.
but being together you are supposed to hang in there,
go through together.
not divorce, not breaking up.
those are just lame excuses, to free themselves, to free from the partner's burden.
abusing won't happen if the fella loves you.
who will beat up a loved one?
unless the person is insane.
true love conquers everything.
having 2 failed relationship, it makes me realised more.
i wasn't thinking.
i was fooled by those 'love bugs'.
thinking about it, i realised how gullible i am.
but now, i'm more aware and know what i want from it.
looking long term now.
no more short term.
--------------
true love last forever.
no matter how hard it gets.
honey,
thank you.
the great short day we had yesterday was fun!
as long as i get to see you,
even for a few minutes,
i am happy!
i want to be the only woman in your life forever.
Tuesday, September 16
the partner takes the stress away!
i am taking a break from readings and revising!
it's driving me nuts!
help help help help help!!!
and i've changed my blog song.
i find this song touching and very sweet.
like whatever happens,
the girl will always remains in the guy's heart.
and i hope to be the girl forever in the partner's heart.
this song is one of the sing-a-long songs for the partner and i.
we really sang it with emotions and try to reach every pitch and tone.
and it was funny when either of us can't reach it.
we will laugh at one another.
honey,
i know you give your all in this relationship.
making sure that i'm always happy when i'm with you, and changing your ways to be a better lover thus making our relationship better.
for handling my pms in a better way,
putting my needs before yours,
pampering me even though you are dry at times,
impressing me with your transformers collections,
teasing me until i get mad (haha! ock!),
driving me around,
making me laugh for no reason,
playing games with me,
correcting me,
laughing together till our faces turn red,
providing sound advices to me,
supporting my every move,
finishing up my food,
surprising me,
making sure i don't get caught in the rain,
piggybacking me 4 stories up,
helping me to make a decision,
singing and dancing to me,
helping me with my assignments,
taking care of me,
bringing me to new places,
composing sweet smses,
making time to talk to me,
spending time to have dates with me no matter how super busy you are,
giving me surprise pecks,
holding my hand,
embracing me and kissing my forehead when i'm low,
making me feel secure with you,
loving me,
and so much more.
for everything that you've done darling,
i appreciate it.
you take my stress away.
mutalib darling,
you will always be in my heart
and etched in my mind.
i will see you soon to break fast together!
it's driving me nuts!
help help help help help!!!
and i've changed my blog song.
i find this song touching and very sweet.
like whatever happens,
the girl will always remains in the guy's heart.
and i hope to be the girl forever in the partner's heart.
this song is one of the sing-a-long songs for the partner and i.
we really sang it with emotions and try to reach every pitch and tone.
and it was funny when either of us can't reach it.
we will laugh at one another.
honey,
i know you give your all in this relationship.
making sure that i'm always happy when i'm with you, and changing your ways to be a better lover thus making our relationship better.
for handling my pms in a better way,
putting my needs before yours,
pampering me even though you are dry at times,
impressing me with your transformers collections,
teasing me until i get mad (haha! ock!),
driving me around,
making me laugh for no reason,
playing games with me,
correcting me,
laughing together till our faces turn red,
providing sound advices to me,
supporting my every move,
finishing up my food,
surprising me,
making sure i don't get caught in the rain,
piggybacking me 4 stories up,
helping me to make a decision,
singing and dancing to me,
helping me with my assignments,
taking care of me,
bringing me to new places,
composing sweet smses,
making time to talk to me,
spending time to have dates with me no matter how super busy you are,
giving me surprise pecks,
holding my hand,
embracing me and kissing my forehead when i'm low,
making me feel secure with you,
loving me,
and so much more.
for everything that you've done darling,
i appreciate it.
you take my stress away.
mutalib darling,
you will always be in my heart
and etched in my mind.
i will see you soon to break fast together!
away from reality.
these 3 weeks are gonna be hectic!
with the deadlines and mid term tests!
oh nooo!
and i have an upcoming test this wed,
which is tomorrow.
8 in the morning.
aiyoooooo.
i've finished reading the chapters for the test in the textbook,
and right now,
i'm taking a break,
a break from cramping my brain with terms, theories and studies.
and so now,
i've searched for places to go for the upcoming japan trip.
most probably it will be next year.
i was thinking of visiting sendai again,
instead of just going to tokyo.
why?
because sendai is much more relax compared to tokyo.
and perhaps my host family can bring us for a tour or something.
if we were to go sendai,
we will need to take the bullet train.
i am getting excited,
really!
and japan means $$$$$$
luckily our hotels and flights are free.
=)
honey,
i know you are excited to take a look at the transformers toys!
after getting bored of surfing,
i looked at the calender in my phone.
and i played around with the dates.
being a far sighted person,
i decided to go to 05-01-2056.
it will be our 50th anniversary,
the partner is going to be 73 years old,
while me, 70 years old.
will we still be alive to celebrate it together?
and i think it's cool that the partner's birthday is on the 11.
while mine is on the 22.
11 x 2 = 22.
haha.
lame!
still on dates and years,
i hope to conceive by 26.
as i played around with the dates,
i realised that if i were to be 30,
what would i have achieved?
and it's getting scary that i'm getting old.
now,
still in the 20s,
i still feel young.
but i wonder,
if i'm in my 30s,
how would i feel?
i mean to compare the early twenties to 30s,
i think 30 is old.
oh goodness!
then comes 40, 50, 60, and so on and so forth.
and i have to be prepared to take up new roles,
eg, wife, mother, aunt, etc.
but hey,
who knows that i might enjoy my 30s?
be a loving wife, taking care of my family, having more children, focus on work.
and my 40s too?
be a loving wife and mother, hopefully by then stop having children, focus on work.
and my 50s too?
be a loving wife and mother. start nagging at my teenagers kids. focus on work
and any age i'm in?
so i guess there's nothing scary about it after all.
=)
and to have the partner by my side is going to make my life journey exciting!
i'll better head to lala land and meet the partner under the mango tree,
so that i could have a brighter mind for revision tomorrow!
good night readers!
sweetheart,
thanks for the few phone calls that made me laugh!
honey,
if i could,
i still want you to be my partner in heaven.
in which everything is much more pleasant and perfect!
with the deadlines and mid term tests!
oh nooo!
and i have an upcoming test this wed,
which is tomorrow.
8 in the morning.
aiyoooooo.
i've finished reading the chapters for the test in the textbook,
and right now,
i'm taking a break,
a break from cramping my brain with terms, theories and studies.
and so now,
i've searched for places to go for the upcoming japan trip.
most probably it will be next year.
i was thinking of visiting sendai again,
instead of just going to tokyo.
why?
because sendai is much more relax compared to tokyo.
and perhaps my host family can bring us for a tour or something.
if we were to go sendai,
we will need to take the bullet train.
i am getting excited,
really!
and japan means $$$$$$
luckily our hotels and flights are free.
=)
honey,
i know you are excited to take a look at the transformers toys!
after getting bored of surfing,
i looked at the calender in my phone.
and i played around with the dates.
being a far sighted person,
i decided to go to 05-01-2056.
it will be our 50th anniversary,
the partner is going to be 73 years old,
while me, 70 years old.
will we still be alive to celebrate it together?
and i think it's cool that the partner's birthday is on the 11.
while mine is on the 22.
11 x 2 = 22.
haha.
lame!
still on dates and years,
i hope to conceive by 26.
as i played around with the dates,
i realised that if i were to be 30,
what would i have achieved?
and it's getting scary that i'm getting old.
now,
still in the 20s,
i still feel young.
but i wonder,
if i'm in my 30s,
how would i feel?
i mean to compare the early twenties to 30s,
i think 30 is old.
oh goodness!
then comes 40, 50, 60, and so on and so forth.
and i have to be prepared to take up new roles,
eg, wife, mother, aunt, etc.
but hey,
who knows that i might enjoy my 30s?
be a loving wife, taking care of my family, having more children, focus on work.
and my 40s too?
be a loving wife and mother, hopefully by then stop having children, focus on work.
and my 50s too?
be a loving wife and mother. start nagging at my teenagers kids. focus on work
and any age i'm in?
so i guess there's nothing scary about it after all.
=)
and to have the partner by my side is going to make my life journey exciting!
i'll better head to lala land and meet the partner under the mango tree,
so that i could have a brighter mind for revision tomorrow!
good night readers!
sweetheart,
thanks for the few phone calls that made me laugh!
honey,
if i could,
i still want you to be my partner in heaven.
in which everything is much more pleasant and perfect!
Monday, September 15
terrific sunday!
you ought to know where this is.
yes,
geylang serai.
i went there again with the partner and his parents.
this time with a mission,
to get the partner and i matching baju,
sponsered by his parents.
it will be our third year to have matching outfit.
the first year,
white.
second,
pink.
every year while searching for the baju,
i feel bad making his parents walk all around just for me to find the suitable baju.
cause i'm fussy you see.
wait,
not fussy.
just very, very particular.
by the end of the search,
we got ourselves a pair of good looking baju.
thank you makcik & pakcik!
earlier this year,
his mom bought for me kain and it has been taliored
and grandma is sewing one baju for me.
thus this year,
3 sets of raya costumes.
the partner and i together with his parents had a great time walking through the bazaar and laughing at some silly things that caught our eyes.
=)
since he had soccer at night and we were quite early,
the four of us head to ikea to just walk around.
ok lah,
obviously what i wanted to do on the below picture was a failure,
i was trying to camouflage the partner with the yellow bins.
it was too obvious that you can spot him.
of course every trip to ikea means to vanilla ice cream!
weee!
after his soccer,
the four of us had supper at west coast.
=)
afterwhich home sweet home!
while inside the car,
his parents and i teased the partner!
even though it was pretty dark,
i can still see that the partner's face was flushed!
i laughed pretty hard my face got cramp when i stop laughing.
funny funny!!
darlingmarlingbarling,
we have so many things to look forward to,
together!
there is no one else i rather be with.
Sunday, September 14
saturday walle!
on friday,
the partner informed me that he has got tickets for wall-e on saturday.
and so we brought along the girls to watch it.
wall-e was alright.
not something that i would like to watch again.
but i have to say that it was sweet,
about how wall-e and eve care for one another.
=)
fatin was stoning.
atiqah had a haircut by nenek.
hazirah, being herself.
a snap shot.
the ride in the car was filled with our thoughts and rambling.
and about our plan tomorrow.
=)
in the evening i had to help out with a lantern festival celebration.
i was assigned to tea appreciation.
i had to learn the steps to mix it and the way to pour.
it was cool lah!
and my tea wasn't the chinese tea but it was an english tea,
the tea was a mixture of peach, lemon, pineapple and apple.
i like it!
sweet!
and people kept coming for more!
the table i'm in-charge-of.
i've tried the mooncakes.
sweet and chewy.
oh no,
i've consumed so many sweet things already.
must control!
i still remember last year lantern festival,
i was with the partner.
walking around,
enjoying the atmosphere.
while sitting down at the tea table,
as i see many families got together,
parents helping out their children with the lanterns,
the misses i have for the partner started to crawl in.
i was day dreaming in the midst of the loud songs that was being played.
i was already imagining that i'm married to the partner.
how we will be running our family and the households.
gosh!
why should i think about marriage now?
i am still not earning $$$$$.
but seriously,
i can't wait!
honey,
i have no idea what you see in her.
and i have no idea why you love her.
but she is thankful for the love you've been showering upon her.
she loves you.
the partner informed me that he has got tickets for wall-e on saturday.
and so we brought along the girls to watch it.
wall-e was alright.
not something that i would like to watch again.
but i have to say that it was sweet,
about how wall-e and eve care for one another.
=)
fatin was stoning.
atiqah had a haircut by nenek.
hazirah, being herself.
a snap shot.
the ride in the car was filled with our thoughts and rambling.
and about our plan tomorrow.
=)
in the evening i had to help out with a lantern festival celebration.
i was assigned to tea appreciation.
i had to learn the steps to mix it and the way to pour.
it was cool lah!
and my tea wasn't the chinese tea but it was an english tea,
the tea was a mixture of peach, lemon, pineapple and apple.
i like it!
sweet!
and people kept coming for more!
the table i'm in-charge-of.
i've tried the mooncakes.
sweet and chewy.
oh no,
i've consumed so many sweet things already.
must control!
i still remember last year lantern festival,
i was with the partner.
walking around,
enjoying the atmosphere.
while sitting down at the tea table,
as i see many families got together,
parents helping out their children with the lanterns,
the misses i have for the partner started to crawl in.
i was day dreaming in the midst of the loud songs that was being played.
i was already imagining that i'm married to the partner.
how we will be running our family and the households.
gosh!
why should i think about marriage now?
i am still not earning $$$$$.
but seriously,
i can't wait!
honey,
i have no idea what you see in her.
and i have no idea why you love her.
but she is thankful for the love you've been showering upon her.
she loves you.
Friday, September 12
we'll always have each other
and so last night,
after our double dates,
the partner had to return to work to settle some stuffs.
knowing that he's stressed at work,
i wanted to put a smile on his face,
thus, i send a dedication to him.
which was read by yaz on class 95.
i've managed to record it full,
however the converter allowed me to convert only 50% of it.
and you got to increase the volume to listen to it.
Mighty-M-boy!
i am smiling to myself knowing you are listening to this dedication.
i can even imagine your face reacting to it.
and I'm sure there's a smile on you right now.
sweetheart,
with every day that pass,
it seems that i want you even more.
all because i love you.
the love that we have is a gift that i would never trade for anything, even a million dollar.
it means so much to me.
you are my life,
my love,
the one that i want to share my life with.
sweetheart,
as long as i shall live,
i'll fill your life with happiness and laughter.
i promise.
i am so proud of you honey.
thanks for being the best partner ever,
and sweetheart,
thanks for making me experience love at its best.
*hugs&tickles&kisses*
love,
atirah
************
some might see that i'm so into the partner and that might keep you wondering whether the partner is as equally crazy over me.
some might assume that i made up stories to make everything oh so perfect!
don't wonder and assume.
let me share it with you.
yes, the partner is equally into me.
he do get busy with work,
he does feel bad about it.
it's something that can't be help.
but i'm glad that no matter how busy he is, he still remember me by making time to call and sms me.
those little things makes me happy.
=)
i know work isn't easy.
on my part,
i have to be understanding,
it's like the saying,
"behind every successful man is a woman."
and i want to be the woman who propels him forward by provides endless support and encouragements, to pamper him and always be proud of him.
so how do he take a breather at work?
just like a little boy's table,
his office table is decorated and arranged with small transformers, spiderman figurines.
heh!
what makes him mature is a picture of us and a picture of me smiling back at him on his table.
those stuffs makes him breathe.
by having pictures of me at work, in his room, in his wallet, on his phone
do show something right?
and his phone is filled with my love messages.
and of course,
he do sent me sweet lovely smses that made me read and read and read it again.
he provide me with extreme happiness by showering me with his unconditional love, his thoughtful actions and his funny jokes.
and the fact that we have chemistry and connect very well is a bonus!
when we have our fights and arguments,
it's just like when you're sick,
you have to consume the bitter medicine to get well. (*bearing in mind that you have to take the correct medicine.)
it's also the same for a relationship.
arguments are always horrible (bitter medicine)
but it always end happily (get well)
we end the problem on the day itself,
even though it means less sleep settling it.
and to avoid falling sick,
you have to take good care of yourself.
that's when the both of us have to take precautions and learn something about the mistake so it won't occur again.
it wasn't easy for the partner to have me.
trust me.
because at that time, i wasn't that interested in him as i was dating someone else.
while the partner and i were in the courting period, after a date with him one night,
even though it's hard, i had to be fair and let him know,
i confess everything to him.
telling him about the other guy, about how confused i was.
that was the first time i broke down in front of him.
he takes it calmly and he didn't rush me for a decision, he told me to take my time.
but only god knows how he felt.
and he said this : let the best man wins.
we had a separation for about 3 weeks since i thought i would like to forget about him.
during the separation, i can't help it but to think of the partner at the back of my mind.
and there's this weird vision of me ending up with him.
we get back in touch through msn.
by changing our nicknames and signing in and out.
we were communicating through our nicknames.
initially,
both of us didn't dare to open a chatbox and start and conversation.
until, he did.
since then,
we were careful at our every step.
no man ever impress me with his actions, except the partner.
especially on my 19th birthday.
we had lunch at swensens,
watched the first narnia movie,
followed by dessert,
and a walk near the esplanade.
we sat at a bench (which is now gone due to the temporary venue for national day events)
and he handed me a gift.
i was really stunned at his gift.
it was an ipod nano (we were still friends, well special friends back then).
once he told me that he bought me a swensen ice cream cake to surprise me on my actual birthday.
but since i told him i wasn't a fan of it during the lunch at swensen,
he kept the cake to himself.
i didn't know he did that for me until he told me when we are a couple.
it took him effort, patience and determination to win my love.
how can that not show how much he loves me?
this is the most touching relationship i ever had.
he went through a lot to convince me that he's capable of my love.
the partner proved to me that he truly deserved my unconditonal love.
he makes me feel significant.
and now as a couple,
if we have decisions to make,
we would always asked and discuss with each other to be assured and convinced.
that's just us.
i think that is enough to show that we are equally into each other and that we love each other.
=)
honey,
years back when i got to know you,
2 questions pop on my mind,
could you be the one?
and
i've always got a feeling that we're gonna end up together and get married.
there's just something about you.
thanks for never giving up on us.
after our double dates,
the partner had to return to work to settle some stuffs.
knowing that he's stressed at work,
i wanted to put a smile on his face,
thus, i send a dedication to him.
which was read by yaz on class 95.
i've managed to record it full,
however the converter allowed me to convert only 50% of it.
and you got to increase the volume to listen to it.
Mighty-M-boy!
i am smiling to myself knowing you are listening to this dedication.
i can even imagine your face reacting to it.
and I'm sure there's a smile on you right now.
sweetheart,
with every day that pass,
it seems that i want you even more.
all because i love you.
the love that we have is a gift that i would never trade for anything, even a million dollar.
it means so much to me.
you are my life,
my love,
the one that i want to share my life with.
sweetheart,
as long as i shall live,
i'll fill your life with happiness and laughter.
i promise.
i am so proud of you honey.
thanks for being the best partner ever,
and sweetheart,
thanks for making me experience love at its best.
*hugs&tickles&kisses*
love,
atirah
************
some might see that i'm so into the partner and that might keep you wondering whether the partner is as equally crazy over me.
some might assume that i made up stories to make everything oh so perfect!
don't wonder and assume.
let me share it with you.
yes, the partner is equally into me.
he do get busy with work,
he does feel bad about it.
it's something that can't be help.
but i'm glad that no matter how busy he is, he still remember me by making time to call and sms me.
those little things makes me happy.
=)
i know work isn't easy.
on my part,
i have to be understanding,
it's like the saying,
"behind every successful man is a woman."
and i want to be the woman who propels him forward by provides endless support and encouragements, to pamper him and always be proud of him.
so how do he take a breather at work?
just like a little boy's table,
his office table is decorated and arranged with small transformers, spiderman figurines.
heh!
what makes him mature is a picture of us and a picture of me smiling back at him on his table.
those stuffs makes him breathe.
by having pictures of me at work, in his room, in his wallet, on his phone
do show something right?
and his phone is filled with my love messages.
and of course,
he do sent me sweet lovely smses that made me read and read and read it again.
he provide me with extreme happiness by showering me with his unconditional love, his thoughtful actions and his funny jokes.
and the fact that we have chemistry and connect very well is a bonus!
when we have our fights and arguments,
it's just like when you're sick,
you have to consume the bitter medicine to get well. (*bearing in mind that you have to take the correct medicine.)
it's also the same for a relationship.
arguments are always horrible (bitter medicine)
but it always end happily (get well)
we end the problem on the day itself,
even though it means less sleep settling it.
and to avoid falling sick,
you have to take good care of yourself.
that's when the both of us have to take precautions and learn something about the mistake so it won't occur again.
it wasn't easy for the partner to have me.
trust me.
because at that time, i wasn't that interested in him as i was dating someone else.
while the partner and i were in the courting period, after a date with him one night,
even though it's hard, i had to be fair and let him know,
i confess everything to him.
telling him about the other guy, about how confused i was.
that was the first time i broke down in front of him.
he takes it calmly and he didn't rush me for a decision, he told me to take my time.
but only god knows how he felt.
and he said this : let the best man wins.
we had a separation for about 3 weeks since i thought i would like to forget about him.
during the separation, i can't help it but to think of the partner at the back of my mind.
and there's this weird vision of me ending up with him.
we get back in touch through msn.
by changing our nicknames and signing in and out.
we were communicating through our nicknames.
initially,
both of us didn't dare to open a chatbox and start and conversation.
until, he did.
since then,
we were careful at our every step.
no man ever impress me with his actions, except the partner.
especially on my 19th birthday.
we had lunch at swensens,
watched the first narnia movie,
followed by dessert,
and a walk near the esplanade.
we sat at a bench (which is now gone due to the temporary venue for national day events)
and he handed me a gift.
i was really stunned at his gift.
it was an ipod nano (we were still friends, well special friends back then).
once he told me that he bought me a swensen ice cream cake to surprise me on my actual birthday.
but since i told him i wasn't a fan of it during the lunch at swensen,
he kept the cake to himself.
i didn't know he did that for me until he told me when we are a couple.
it took him effort, patience and determination to win my love.
how can that not show how much he loves me?
this is the most touching relationship i ever had.
he went through a lot to convince me that he's capable of my love.
the partner proved to me that he truly deserved my unconditonal love.
he makes me feel significant.
and now as a couple,
if we have decisions to make,
we would always asked and discuss with each other to be assured and convinced.
that's just us.
i think that is enough to show that we are equally into each other and that we love each other.
=)
honey,
years back when i got to know you,
2 questions pop on my mind,
could you be the one?
and
i've always got a feeling that we're gonna end up together and get married.
there's just something about you.
thanks for never giving up on us.
double date iftar
and yesterday plan went on smoothly.
=)
except for the peak hours.
i hate driving during those hours.
and ohhhh...
yesterday if you see a female walking in the campus wearing a white baju kurung with pink flowers,
you would have spotted me.
heh!
the partner and i,
together with suliza and her partner break fast together.
we didn't managed to reach there on time thus we had to eat light snacks in the car.
our usual order.
we went to the same place we went yesterday.
this time round with suliza and her partner.
and we went to al-falah mosque to do isyak and terawih.
the mosque just had a renovation at the men praying area,
and boy,
it looks grand.
very grand.
that i even suggested to the partner,
perhaps we can do our solemnization here.
hah!
planning only.
oh yah, the toilet has been renovated too.
while waiting for suliza to put on her make-up.
and the 4 of us went to....
look at the billboard and you will know where.
and the partner and i had a fun time trying out and playing with the different toys.
presss here, there.
turn this knob, turn that knob.
amazed by toys that we never see before.
the partner: honey, i think it will be fun if we have kids.
me: of course honey! we can play the toys too!
the partner: hahha! ya lah!
i think our kids will have toys that their parents (the partner and i) like to play with.
haha!
and we've decided not to get those irritating loud making noise toys,
unless we mute it.
evil parents eh?
haha.
we won't be that mean.
the both of us has been making so many plans for the future.
that it makes me excited to be legally his.
and i know the both of us will put in effort to have this blissful relationship througout our life.
we both know that we can never be this happier.
honey,
you're so fun!
i love you!
=)
except for the peak hours.
i hate driving during those hours.
and ohhhh...
yesterday if you see a female walking in the campus wearing a white baju kurung with pink flowers,
you would have spotted me.
heh!
the partner and i,
together with suliza and her partner break fast together.
we didn't managed to reach there on time thus we had to eat light snacks in the car.
our usual order.
we went to the same place we went yesterday.
this time round with suliza and her partner.
and we went to al-falah mosque to do isyak and terawih.
the mosque just had a renovation at the men praying area,
and boy,
it looks grand.
very grand.
that i even suggested to the partner,
perhaps we can do our solemnization here.
hah!
planning only.
oh yah, the toilet has been renovated too.
while waiting for suliza to put on her make-up.
and the 4 of us went to....
look at the billboard and you will know where.
and the partner and i had a fun time trying out and playing with the different toys.
presss here, there.
turn this knob, turn that knob.
amazed by toys that we never see before.
the partner: honey, i think it will be fun if we have kids.
me: of course honey! we can play the toys too!
the partner: hahha! ya lah!
i think our kids will have toys that their parents (the partner and i) like to play with.
haha!
and we've decided not to get those irritating loud making noise toys,
unless we mute it.
evil parents eh?
haha.
we won't be that mean.
the both of us has been making so many plans for the future.
that it makes me excited to be legally his.
and i know the both of us will put in effort to have this blissful relationship througout our life.
we both know that we can never be this happier.
honey,
you're so fun!
i love you!
Thursday, September 11
tired date
on top of our long day at school/work,
we both of us had heavy bags to carry.
thus by the end of yesterday date,
both of us were tired.
i was too tired that i slept before midnight.
we ate twice at 2 different places in town.
first up,
ayam bakar ojolali.
we've been hooked to that place ever since we know about the place very, very long time ago.
and the partner and i never failed to get the same thing over and over and over again,
ayam goreng (fried chicken)
what is the nicest thing that got us hooked?
it's their ketchup.
simply yummy!
we were looking at toys at far east and we feel like getting something to bite.
with our heavy bags that was affecting our walking distance,
we went to the basement to get food.
ramen ten.
the food.
the partner was showing me some stuff on his phone.
and we took a bus to clementi afterwhich his parents fetched us.
the partner looked so happy.
haha!
and today,
the partner and i gonna meet each other and break fast together and do our prayers in the mosque.
=)
hopefully suliza and her partner can join us.
i think dad's fine with me having the car in the evening.
if not,
we will reach home even later.
sweetheart,
i'm looking forward to break fast with you every day.
and we're gonna have a fun time preparing our food!
hahha!
just like food,
i can't survive long without you.
we both of us had heavy bags to carry.
thus by the end of yesterday date,
both of us were tired.
i was too tired that i slept before midnight.
we ate twice at 2 different places in town.
first up,
ayam bakar ojolali.
we've been hooked to that place ever since we know about the place very, very long time ago.
and the partner and i never failed to get the same thing over and over and over again,
ayam goreng (fried chicken)
what is the nicest thing that got us hooked?
it's their ketchup.
simply yummy!
we were looking at toys at far east and we feel like getting something to bite.
with our heavy bags that was affecting our walking distance,
we went to the basement to get food.
ramen ten.
the food.
the partner was showing me some stuff on his phone.
and we took a bus to clementi afterwhich his parents fetched us.
the partner looked so happy.
haha!
and today,
the partner and i gonna meet each other and break fast together and do our prayers in the mosque.
=)
hopefully suliza and her partner can join us.
i think dad's fine with me having the car in the evening.
if not,
we will reach home even later.
sweetheart,
i'm looking forward to break fast with you every day.
and we're gonna have a fun time preparing our food!
hahha!
just like food,
i can't survive long without you.
Tuesday, September 9
to the readers
loyal readers,
i have something especially for you.
=)
just go to the extreme left column and scroll down.
i've added a new section,
special reads.
most of the posts were about love and surprises.
so expect many lovey dovey stuffs!
sweetheart,
let me be selfish and have you all day long.
can i?
haha.
blame it on the misses i have for you.
i have something especially for you.
=)
just go to the extreme left column and scroll down.
i've added a new section,
special reads.
most of the posts were about love and surprises.
so expect many lovey dovey stuffs!
sweetheart,
let me be selfish and have you all day long.
can i?
haha.
blame it on the misses i have for you.
happy days!
me and atiqah fetched the partner from work yesterday.
while i was busily concentrating on the road,
the 2 of them at the back were dancing and playing around.
atiqah is so cheeky!
we let time pass over my house.
=)
joked. ate banana split. watched tv. laughed.
a good quality time together.
sunday
after so long,
perhaps a few months,
we visited his favourite toys centre in chinatown.
all the various figurines and of course transformers.
of course the partner went gaga over the toys.
but he was a good boy that he resist buying any of it.
we took turns to look at our interest.
the partner, transformer.
me, antiques.
the antiques item there were beautiful,
perhaps i would just get them when i've a house of my own.
and we inquired about our japan's trip.
=)
it will be another free and easy trip since the tours would be in mandarin.
we are not really sure when we will be going,
have to see his parents' schedules.
we postponed searching for our raya clothes since the both of us were tired.
haha.
we had a heartily meal over at my house for buka.
while i was sitting down during sahur,
my message tone went off.
it was an unexpected sms from the partner.
thanks baby!
and i just received a call that i have to relief.
$$$$.
hahha!
honey,
I L.O.V.E Y.O.U!
while i was busily concentrating on the road,
the 2 of them at the back were dancing and playing around.
atiqah is so cheeky!
we let time pass over my house.
=)
joked. ate banana split. watched tv. laughed.
a good quality time together.
sunday
after so long,
perhaps a few months,
we visited his favourite toys centre in chinatown.
all the various figurines and of course transformers.
of course the partner went gaga over the toys.
but he was a good boy that he resist buying any of it.
we took turns to look at our interest.
the partner, transformer.
me, antiques.
the antiques item there were beautiful,
perhaps i would just get them when i've a house of my own.
and we inquired about our japan's trip.
=)
it will be another free and easy trip since the tours would be in mandarin.
we are not really sure when we will be going,
have to see his parents' schedules.
we postponed searching for our raya clothes since the both of us were tired.
haha.
we had a heartily meal over at my house for buka.
while i was sitting down during sahur,
my message tone went off.
it was an unexpected sms from the partner.
thanks baby!
and i just received a call that i have to relief.
$$$$.
hahha!
honey,
I L.O.V.E Y.O.U!
Sunday, September 7
weekend fun!
my weekend has been grgrrrgreattt!
that friday night,
since the partner was tired from work and school,
i offered to drive the the partner and his parents,
to geylang serai.
well,
it was already late when we reached there and so most of the stalls were closing down and the crowds weren't there.
so we didn't have much to see and experience.
for saturday,
i had a teambuilding session with the other south west yecs,
for ice breakers,
we had the mind's cafe to introduce us some games,
it was fun!
and my team got first and we won ourselves a voucher each.
=)
one of the game we played.
afterwhich i head home early since i want to break fast with my family members and the partner.
while slacking,
the geniuses (the partner & i) came up with an excellent plan!
while inside the car,
the both of us discussed about disciplining our children and random stuffs.
and we both have the same idea how we want our kids to be brought up.
we head out shopping and get ourselves the below items.
it was raining heavily while we were out and the both of us got wet even though we had an umbrella.
we had great time splashing water with our feet,
and holding each other near.
so what did we get?
we're trying to make our own strawberry soda!
the outcome!
it was a fun experiment!
we added in stuffs, we tasted, we came to a verdict, we adjusted.
and we have our desired outcome!
told you we're geniuses.
hahha!
apart form that,
we got ourselves a cake.
for no occasion,
wait,
let's take it for our 32 months together.
the partner went crazy over this cake.
we had a game of taboo with fatin and hazirah,
followed by charades and boggle.
the messy table.
we got drenched, we experimented, we played, we laughed,
how can we not smile?
our tired smiles.
and when i woke up, i've received an sms from the partner saying that we'll be shopping for our raya clothes today.
woweee i get to meet him again!
we've already set on the colour.
well, actually it was me, months back.
we'll just need to go geylang with his parents and choose together.
honey,
i never have someone else who is as close as you.
with every day that pass,
it seems that i want you even more.
all because i love you.
that friday night,
since the partner was tired from work and school,
i offered to drive the the partner and his parents,
to geylang serai.
well,
it was already late when we reached there and so most of the stalls were closing down and the crowds weren't there.
so we didn't have much to see and experience.
for saturday,
i had a teambuilding session with the other south west yecs,
for ice breakers,
we had the mind's cafe to introduce us some games,
it was fun!
and my team got first and we won ourselves a voucher each.
=)
one of the game we played.
afterwhich i head home early since i want to break fast with my family members and the partner.
while slacking,
the geniuses (the partner & i) came up with an excellent plan!
while inside the car,
the both of us discussed about disciplining our children and random stuffs.
and we both have the same idea how we want our kids to be brought up.
we head out shopping and get ourselves the below items.
it was raining heavily while we were out and the both of us got wet even though we had an umbrella.
we had great time splashing water with our feet,
and holding each other near.
so what did we get?
we're trying to make our own strawberry soda!
the outcome!
it was a fun experiment!
we added in stuffs, we tasted, we came to a verdict, we adjusted.
and we have our desired outcome!
told you we're geniuses.
hahha!
apart form that,
we got ourselves a cake.
for no occasion,
wait,
let's take it for our 32 months together.
the partner went crazy over this cake.
we had a game of taboo with fatin and hazirah,
followed by charades and boggle.
the messy table.
we got drenched, we experimented, we played, we laughed,
how can we not smile?
our tired smiles.
and when i woke up, i've received an sms from the partner saying that we'll be shopping for our raya clothes today.
woweee i get to meet him again!
we've already set on the colour.
well, actually it was me, months back.
we'll just need to go geylang with his parents and choose together.
honey,
i never have someone else who is as close as you.
with every day that pass,
it seems that i want you even more.
all because i love you.
Friday, September 5
happy 32nd darling!
in life,
there is something we can't control.
that is,
time.
it is constantly on the go.
and it waits for no one.
if you miss it,
that's it.
i doubt there will be anyone who can create a time machine.
god is the greatest.
still in the topic of time,
today marks our 32nd months together!
4 more months till our 3rd!
and guess what?
our 1000th day falls on a nice date.
=)
i will share the date when the time is nearing.
honey,
i don't know what you see in me.
i am just glad that i'm yours.
happy 32nd month-versary darling!
there is something we can't control.
that is,
time.
it is constantly on the go.
and it waits for no one.
if you miss it,
that's it.
in one of the lectures,
the lecturer did mentioned about time.
time unite us.
i doubt there will be anyone who can create a time machine.
god is the greatest.
still in the topic of time,
today marks our 32nd months together!
4 more months till our 3rd!
and guess what?
our 1000th day falls on a nice date.
=)
i will share the date when the time is nearing.
honey,
i don't know what you see in me.
i am just glad that i'm yours.
happy 32nd month-versary darling!
conflict with myself.
just 2 hours earlier,
i was complaining that i was so tired and my body was lethargic.
but here i am blogging away.
i was at the verge of skipping the terawih prayers,
my mind was conflicting on its own.
to do or not to do.
it was like a 53% to 47%.
the latter not to do.
pretty close eh?
still i can't make the decision.
thus i called the partner,
me: honey, i'm in a conflict.
the partner: with who?
me: with myself. i'm not sure whether i should skip prayers.
the partner: go pray lah.
me: oh ok lah.
the partner: go pray ok honey? i'll wait up for you.
me: it's ok honey, you can go to go sleep, i will do my prayers.
even a small decision,
i need to discuss with the partner.
well,
it wasn't discussing,
i just need assurance.
with all my might,
i did it!
it's mind over body.
it was indeed very tempting to just go to bed.
however,
knowing that all devils have been 'locked',
i have full control of my behaviour, my mind.
lesson learnt: you choose what is good for you.
=)
honey,
seeing you and spending time with you was great!
you should know by now how much i need you,
especially on your views.
thanks for psycho-ing me!
i love you sayang.
i was complaining that i was so tired and my body was lethargic.
but here i am blogging away.
i was at the verge of skipping the terawih prayers,
my mind was conflicting on its own.
to do or not to do.
it was like a 53% to 47%.
the latter not to do.
pretty close eh?
still i can't make the decision.
thus i called the partner,
me: honey, i'm in a conflict.
the partner: with who?
me: with myself. i'm not sure whether i should skip prayers.
the partner: go pray lah.
me: oh ok lah.
the partner: go pray ok honey? i'll wait up for you.
me: it's ok honey, you can go to go sleep, i will do my prayers.
even a small decision,
i need to discuss with the partner.
well,
it wasn't discussing,
i just need assurance.
with all my might,
i did it!
it's mind over body.
it was indeed very tempting to just go to bed.
however,
knowing that all devils have been 'locked',
i have full control of my behaviour, my mind.
lesson learnt: you choose what is good for you.
=)
honey,
seeing you and spending time with you was great!
you should know by now how much i need you,
especially on your views.
thanks for psycho-ing me!
i love you sayang.
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